Most creatives find that they have to create their own systems and values that they need to live by in order to propel themselves toward their chosen goal.
With this state of being comes confusion. We have to trust that eminence is only a matter of hard work and determination. What goes around will come around, giving us greater authenticity on route to the achievement of our creative goals.
Have pioneering qualities and remember that pessimism itself is often a subjective perspective we impose on reality. Take risks and see what you are capable of.